These past couple of weeks have really been challenging. Last Tuesday I re-started school. I used to enjoy school - like sickening so. Now, I feel irritated when I have to go, that I could be doing a million other things that are so much more relevant to life instead of sitting at that cramped desk. I know that it is important to finish so that way I can be a college graduate and make good money and help people reach their optimal level of health...blah, blah, blah. The mantra I constantly repeat to myself is: Only 2 more semesters. On top of being irritated with the whole school process, I have to leave Owen almost every day. It's not that I'm scared of leaving him, because I completely trust my babysitters (Hi, y'all!), but I just don't want to leave him! He's so little, and I may miss something or he may need me.
On that note: It's amazing how huge the little word "mom" is. It's only 3 letters, but it is his whole world (and mine too). Mom is the one you go to for comfort, for help, for food...you know. There are times when I still want my mom for those things, and now I'm suppose to provide that for someone. Wow. It's overwhelming. This little person is going to depend on me to teach him the important things in life, to make sure his clothes are clean, to know where that other shoe is. I have to be the strong one during storms now (eek!). All that and more is wrapped up in a single word that you take on in a matter of a short time. I suppose you could try to prepare for the indescribable feelings during your life and pregnancy, but you can never truly know what to expect until that little one looks at you with those eyes that say "you're my mom."
Okay, off my tangent and onto my struggles: So, on top of school, yesterday I got a flat tire. My first. I freaked out. (ask Nick and Matt) And then it snowed. A lot. So we had to suck it up and deal with our first "emergency" as parents. I think we did okay. And Matt showed me again why I love him so much. He really pulled through for me. And now I have 4 brand new tires and feel much better. Through all that I have been trying to withhold my temper, be calmer and more in control, and not kill our cats. Yeah, still got a long way to go.
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Friday, January 23, 2009
Month One
Has it really been a month since Owen has entered our lives? Where, oh where has the time gone?! If it's going this fast now, what is life going to be like in a year, 5 years, 10 years, etc.? I couldn't keep up before a baby, you can imagine that now I am frantically playing catch up!
For those who don't know, or those who just want to hear it again: Owen Matthew Lacy was born on December 23, 2008 at 8:19am. He was 7lbs 6oz and 19 1/2" long. Because he was breech, I had a c-section. I had about 12 hours to prepare for this surgery...not a lot of time! We came home from the hospital on Christmas morning and were very blessed with both of our families being there plus a full Christmas dinner!
*As a side note, I really want to thank everyone - again - for all the visits and well-wishes and support those first few days (both in the hospital and at home). Matt and I are extremely blessed to have such people in our lives!*
Since then Owen's gotten adjusted to life here on Earth. He eats constantly! At his last dr. appointment on Tuesday, he weighed 9lbs 8oz and was 21 1/2" long. His eyes are still a deep blue-gray and his hair has a red-ish tint to it. While he was born with a full head of hair, he has recently developed a receding hairline (making him look like Dr Phil according to Bekah). He sleeps pretty good - most of the time (!). Seriously, though, he is a very content, happy baby. Matt and I lucked out. The two of us are balancing work and school and baby and, well, life. Most of what we once knew has gone completely out the window, but we feel so much more complete with our l'il man. I will try to keep - somewhat - regular posts about Owen and life, and most of these post will probably be written at 3am! C'est la vie!
December 24, 2008
January 20, 2009
For those who don't know, or those who just want to hear it again: Owen Matthew Lacy was born on December 23, 2008 at 8:19am. He was 7lbs 6oz and 19 1/2" long. Because he was breech, I had a c-section. I had about 12 hours to prepare for this surgery...not a lot of time! We came home from the hospital on Christmas morning and were very blessed with both of our families being there plus a full Christmas dinner!
*As a side note, I really want to thank everyone - again - for all the visits and well-wishes and support those first few days (both in the hospital and at home). Matt and I are extremely blessed to have such people in our lives!*
Since then Owen's gotten adjusted to life here on Earth. He eats constantly! At his last dr. appointment on Tuesday, he weighed 9lbs 8oz and was 21 1/2" long. His eyes are still a deep blue-gray and his hair has a red-ish tint to it. While he was born with a full head of hair, he has recently developed a receding hairline (making him look like Dr Phil according to Bekah). He sleeps pretty good - most of the time (!). Seriously, though, he is a very content, happy baby. Matt and I lucked out. The two of us are balancing work and school and baby and, well, life. Most of what we once knew has gone completely out the window, but we feel so much more complete with our l'il man. I will try to keep - somewhat - regular posts about Owen and life, and most of these post will probably be written at 3am! C'est la vie!
December 24, 2008
January 20, 2009
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